well we got one. a level two...at some point next quarter in some place. i know i should only be excited because i'll get to show the work, my work, and i'll get to preform again. but i can't help but be a little disappointed because what usually happens happened again: shafted for something flashier and in favor of someone who has already had more opportunities. once we have a definite plan, a definite space, a definite set of dates i'll be excited. i'll be so ready.
my level of expectation was too high so of course there is a bit of a let down.
i'm such a baby.
on a different note: i want to join a bluegrass band. or be a welder. or something else. all of this just seems too hard all of a sudden. or maybe i'm not cut out for it.
i want to drop out of school and join the roller disco.
i want to be the poet laureate.
i just...really wanted this. and now? now i don't know what i want.
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