the start to the school year came and went and i have to say that i barely registered it at all. i've never been less prepared to start classes. i showed up on the first with ten different colored pens, a glue stick, a stapler, three thumb drives and nothing to write on. i imagined i could make paper out of words and thin air. i was only half successful in this endeavor.
this year is different.
well, the actions are so different, the motions are very much identical to any other year. it just feels different. not surprisingly, i have changed leaps and bounds since the first day of college. there's a part of me that enjoys the changes and revels in the new adult i've become. and the othe rpart of me knows that not all of the changes are for the better. some scream bitterness and anger, jealousy and lonliness. in some ways, i feel like a new person just walking across campus for the first time. the people i knew, the ones i had gotten so close with are gone and the ones who remain are busy.
bottom line: i need to get motivated. i have fifty pages of playwriting i must do and that i want to do. i am slowly acquising although i still want to fight. the fight has been taken me out me.
yes, i've changed in a lot of ways but in lot of ways i'm that freshman is highschool who hides in her hooded sweatshirt.
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