come back

i'm starting to revive my motivation. before the goal was so close that i just thought i might sail through to the finish line.
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sound weird? yes, let's face it. that isn't me. i think once i remembered who i was, my motivation started to come back. it's still has not fully returned but i'm started to want to work on things again. realizing that every day is schedule from roughly 10am to 11:30pm reminds me that i cannot slow down, i cannot wait. i have to be doing something all the time, even if it isn't exactly what i'm "supposed" to be doing.

i always have to be doing something. silly me.